Why My Child’s Mistake Felt Different

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I had no clue what was about to happen that day, or I might have been better prepared. As we hurried across the parking lot, a small pack of Mentos tumbled out of my son’s pocket, hitting the pavement with a loud thud.

I had no intention of buying candy. My focus was on the Batman shirts I’d picked up for a birthday party that we were already running late for. “Did you take those?” I asked, my voice tight as I tugged him back toward the store. “Oh my gosh! You did! What were you thinking? You asked me if you could have them, and I said no!”

He simply shrugged, “I saw them on the floor, so I thought I could take them.”

“That’s just not true!” I exclaimed. “You know you can’t just take things from a store without paying for them. If you keep this up when you’re older, I won’t be there to help you. Do you understand?”

But he didn’t. How could he? I stormed into Old Navy, dragging my son and his little sister along. With a mix of frustration and embarrassment, I approached the cashier. “We took these by mistake,” I admitted, placing the candy on the counter.

The cashier looked puzzled but accepted my explanation, and we left the store. Eventually, we ended up at Chuck E. Cheese’s anyway. I figured it wouldn’t be fair for my daughter to miss out on the fun just because of her brother’s mistake. So, I made him sit alone in time-out for the first hour before he could enjoy any games.

But I knew I had to take it a step further. After the party, I made him return to Old Navy to apologize to the security guard and the manager. He could barely make eye contact as tears welled up in his eyes. To my surprise, both young men, likely in their thirties, looked at him with pity—as if he were just a sweet kid who didn’t mean any harm.

When I spoke to some mom friends later, both black and white, they shared stories of their childhood mischief. Many believed I was right to enforce consequences, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was overreacting. In an ideal world, I could dismiss my intense worry as unnecessary, but the truth is, the stakes are different for kids of color. Just the other day, a friend shared how her “chubby white teenage nephew” faced no consequences after stealing from a store. Would the same have been true for my son?

I found myself picturing my sweet boy as a teenager—tall and strong—facing a store owner who might not see him as innocent. My heart sank at the thought of a simple mistake spiraling into something serious. Instead of directing my anger at my son, I should have been furious at the system that makes black parents lose sleep over their children’s safety.

Why, after all this time, do we still have to worry about how society perceives our kids? Why do black parents have to have “the talk” with their sons to prepare them for potential dangers that others don’t face?

As a parent, I’ve experienced my fair share of stress and exhaustion. But parenting in a world filled with double standards has taken me to a whole new level of concern. It feels overwhelming, especially knowing this is just the beginning of the journey ahead.

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In summary, my child’s innocent mistake felt magnified by the realities of parenting while black. The fear of societal judgment and harsher consequences looms large, making even small infractions feel like major crises. As we navigate these challenges, it’s important to stay informed and proactive.