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All the Possibilities
Updated: July 2, 2020
Originally Published: Oct. 22, 2015
If only I could create a perfect routine and actually stick to it. If I could just rise on time. If I could turn in early and catch some quality sleep, then I could be alert when it’s time to work and rest when it’s time to rest, right?
If I could just have nutritious meals ready to go, I wouldn’t feel bloated or starved. Having healthy options on hand would keep me from stopping for takeout or soda. I could indulge in organic, home-cooked meals instead of relying on fast food. It would all be ready for me to enjoy.
If I could arrive at work punctually and focus without distractions, I wouldn’t feel like I’m rushing out the door, leaving my tasks half-finished and my coworkers in a lurch. I could actually take a real day off on weekends and holidays—truly a day of rest, a Sabbath, if you will.
If I could tidy up the house, everything would be organized. My clothes would be put away, and I’d easily find what I need. Bills would be paid promptly, laundry would be clean, and I wouldn’t find the cat snacking on butter or the kittens playing with plastic wrap from the recycling.
If I could carve out time to exercise, get up early enough to stretch or practice yoga, I’d feel less stressed. I’d be more flexible and healthier, free from daily headaches and the worry of grinding my teeth all night long.
If I could just remember to take my vitamins, I wouldn’t stress about not drinking enough milk or eating all my veggies. But I genuinely want to enjoy fruits, whole grains, and delightful meals like fresh sushi, grilled chicken, vibrant salads, and juicy mangoes. I know I would eat better if it were more convenient, but is that just circular thinking?
But time, oh time—it’s elusive, like sand slipping through my fingers.
If I could just maintain good posture, I’d avoid becoming a hunchback. If I could stop nibbling on the skin around my nails. If I could stretch my back and release these knots.
If I had time to do my hair, I’d look more polished. If I used lotion at night, my hands would feel softer. If I whitened my teeth more regularly and flossed, they’d shine brighter. If I remembered to wear that fabulous red lipstick, I could feel a little sexier. But there it is, buried at the bottom of my purse alongside old receipts, crumbs, and various forgotten items.
This life feels overwhelming. How can I find a spiritual space for myself amidst the chaos? Which of these responsibilities can I relax on? Being punctual (maybe I should just savor my coffee)? Looking good for my husband (is it okay to let my appearance slide a bit)? Focusing on my health (what about everyone else)? Keeping my family on track (so I’m always late)?
If I could just devise the ultimate schedule, I could tend to my houseplants before they wither away, bake homemade bread, work on my writing, seize spiritual moments, and still share intimate time with my husband, reassuring him of my love despite my exhaustion. I could navigate the unique needs of my children without feeling like a martyr and express my feelings openly.
I’m worn out. I desire it all. But things are slipping through the cracks—my home is chaotic, I haven’t made any homemade jam, and I’ve gained weight since returning to work, glued to my chair for hours. My houseplants are mere sticks in pots. I keep apologizing for it all, but do people really care? Who’s in control here? Is it truly me?
What if it’s all just in my mind? What if it’s not? What’s possible here?
If I’m seeking oneness—with my partner, my body, my spirit, and my God—can I also find balance? Can a perfect schedule accommodate everything I need? And if not, which of these “musts” can I let go?
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In summary, life can feel chaotic and overwhelming, but with the right mindset and support, we can find ways to balance responsibilities while nurturing our well-being and relationships.