The Argument for Standing Tall (Instead of Leaning In or Out)

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After my daughter was born, I took three weeks off—indulgent, right? Since I work from home most of the time, I thought returning to work felt just like being on maternity leave. I still wore my comfy yoga pants, after all. But going back to work three weeks after having a second baby? That’s a whole different story.

My little one wasn’t a fan of sleeping after 8 p.m., so I ended up working through the night. One evening, my husband snapped a picture of me in my yoga pants with my baby girl on my lap, her eyes glued to the screen while our faces were illuminated by the laptop light. I cherish that photo; it perfectly captures that whirlwind time in my life. Yet, it also brings a tear to my eye—not from resentment, but from sheer exhaustion. The phrase “having it all” is draining, and while countless discussions revolve around leaning in or leaning out, there seems to be a missing piece: the individual woman—especially the mom.

I often find myself embodying that mom. I’ve changed diapers during conference calls, nursed while grading papers, and pumped in the car between meetings. I’m not alone in these multitasking moments; many of us juggle personal and professional responsibilities simultaneously, trying to excel at both.

The struggle to “have it all” looks different for every woman. Some may question my perspective since I’ve chosen to be a work-from-home mom, which can sometimes seem like I’m just a stay-at-home mom. You might spot me at Trader Joe’s on a Monday morning wrangling two toddlers and a baby bump, but between grocery runs, zoo visits, and park trips, I’m constantly working—writing, teaching, consulting, volunteering, and parenting. I also cook and handle laundry most of the time. Cleaning? Well, I figured out that’s one task best left to someone else.

In the beloved children’s book Caps for Sale, the protagonist, a peddler, carries his caps in a ridiculous stack on his head. Each time I read it, I see myself in that peddler, balancing countless responsibilities. The image of him taking a well-deserved nap under a tree resonates deeply, illustrating the weight many of us feel as we navigate modern motherhood.

You may have noticed that the advice we give our children often mirrors what we need to hear ourselves. Just the other night, I found myself telling my daughter, “Just because you can’t have cookies right now, doesn’t mean you won’t ever have them. It’s dinnertime; let’s focus on that.” Duh.

Why do we expect to have everything we desire at once? Why do I crave cookies while eating dinner (besides being tired and wanting something sweet)? I’ve created a tower of responsibilities, but why do I need so many hats? The truth is, I don’t.

In our quest for having it all, we seem to believe we must juggle every desire simultaneously, which is overwhelming and often unattainable. I’m not suggesting you stop leaning in or leaning out, but if you feel like you’re leaning too much, maybe it’s time to stand up straight, take a step back, and reevaluate what it is you’re trying to accomplish.

I could conclude this piece with a reminder that your kids are little only once or that your career is at a critical juncture. But that’s not the point. I’m not you, and you’re not me. I can’t dictate which responsibilities you should keep or discard.

Ultimately, this is about us—the real, individual moms. We do so many important things and wear an array of hats. Some are fulfilling, while others can weigh us down. I’m learning that it’s perfectly okay to remove a few hats; in fact, it might be the best course of action. Those other responsibilities will likely still be there when we’re ready to tackle them later.

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Summary

In a world that pressures women to “have it all,” it’s essential to recognize the importance of standing tall rather than constantly leaning in or out. By reassessing our responsibilities and understanding that we don’t need to do everything at once, we can find a balance that allows us to thrive.