Dear Little Ones,

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Yesterday was one of those days for your mama. You probably noticed me munching on stale Halloween candy like it was a gourmet meal. You saw me sobbing into my knees while giving our dog some extra love. I know you heard me raise my voice more times than necessary over things that really didn’t deserve a shout-out. You probably watched me stomp upstairs while the sun was still shining, ready to crawl into bed just to escape the day. You even came up to stroke my hair while I curled up with a book, trying to find solace in the pages. I realize it must be unsettling to see someone who is supposed to be your safe haven feeling so overwhelmed.

Here’s the thing: I can’t pinpoint why I felt this way. It would be easier if there was a clear reason behind my mood. I wish I could give you something tangible to understand — a solid explanation that makes sense. It’s not like the time we lost Great-Grandpa or when I saw something terrible on the news. I can’t say, “Mommy is sad because my sister is unwell.” On days like this, my sadness feels random and unfounded. I can’t articulate why I feel like I’m on the verge of breaking down; I just know it’s coming, and no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to stop it.

I want you to understand that I don’t always have the answers. I’m human, and I need you to know this isn’t your fault. You mean the world to me, and even on tough days when I feel like I’m falling apart, my love for you remains unwavering. Life can be tough, and sometimes mommy needs to let it all out. It’s okay not to smile all the time. We all have moments where we just need to sit with our feelings, and that includes mommies too.

You may not realize how much it means to me when you try to cheer me up, whether it’s bringing me wildflowers or my favorite blanket. Beneath my sadness, you are always there, my most cherished gifts. You are incredible, and my love for you runs deep, even on those days when I might raise my voice or when you might not want to be around me. Please promise me you’ll never question that.

Family is all about being real with one another. We don’t have to pretend to be perfect. If we’re feeling low, it’s okay to acknowledge that. Should we strive to do our best every day? Maybe. But bad days can make us feel like we’ve failed, and that only adds to the struggle.

When I’m having a tough time, I remind myself that the bright days wouldn’t feel as wonderful without the darker ones. Bad days have their lessons; they can teach us something, but they can also weigh us down. Sometimes they sneak up on us and try to take over everything.

But you help me through the gloom — your laughter, your little homemade treats, your soft, sweet singing — you all keep me going.

So yes, Mommy had a rough day yesterday, and I’m sure there will be more ahead. But please, never doubt my love for you — not on the tough days, not on the good days, and not on any day, alright?

Hugs and love,
Mom

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Summary

In this heartfelt message, a mother reflects on a difficult day and reassures her children of her unwavering love. She emphasizes the importance of being real with each other, acknowledging that it’s okay to feel sad without a clear reason. The mother highlights how her children’s gestures brighten her dark moments, reinforcing the bond of family love and support.