One morning, while navigating the chaos of a bustling post office, my son, Jake, declared, “I want a new brother.” I chuckled nervously, unsure how to steer this conversation. “You mean you want to swap your brother for a new one?” I asked, half-joking.
“No, I want more brothers!” he insisted, drawing the attention of nearby patrons. For the millionth time since becoming a parent, I wished I could vanish into thin air.
“Sorry, kiddo. That’s not happening,” I replied.
“But why not?” he pressed.
“Because we have all the brothers we need right here,” I said, and the post office erupted in laughter while I cringed inside.
My kids frequently inquire about the possibility of adding another sibling, which baffles and frustrates me. While I initially managed to pacify them with the “our family is complete” line, it eventually lost its charm. Their follow-up questions grew more complex.
- “How can our family be complete with just two kids?”
- “So-and-so has four kids! Why can’t we?”
- “Why don’t you want more kids?”
- “Doesn’t our opinion matter?”
Sometimes I take a deep breath and engage, reminding them of the perks of our family size. I explain that families come in all shapes and sizes, and ours is just right as a family of four. Other times, I feel like shouting, “We are NOT having more kids, so please stop asking!”
Honestly, few things annoy me more than my children asking for a sibling. I’d rather tackle the “Where do babies come from?” or “Is Santa real?” questions over this one any day because there’s no simple answer.
How do I convey that, once upon a time, I dreamed of having four children, but I later realized I wouldn’t be the best mom to that many? How do I express my love for my two kids while also being firm in my decision not to have more? There’s always that nagging doubt, though.
In the end, I often find myself resorting to “Because I said so” as my closest semblance to an answer. The choice isn’t based on logic; it’s simply a gut feeling that our family is complete. While I know life is inherently unpredictable, I can confidently say, “There’s no way we’re having more kids.”
Even though my husband and I are mostly at peace with our decision to stop at two, I still grapple with guilt and uncertainty. Am I making the right choice for my kids? Would they thrive with more siblings?
But pondering these questions is a futile exercise. Our family is what it is, and while I may have once envisioned a larger brood, that’s just not in the cards for us. When my kids ask why we’re not expanding our clan, I tell them we are enough. I also remind them that one day, when they’re parents, they can have as many siblings as they want because I’ll gladly welcome all the grandkids!
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Summary
While my children frequently express their desire for a new sibling, I find it challenging to respond. Despite my initial dreams of a larger family, I’ve come to terms with our family of four being complete. The conversations can be tricky, filled with questions and doubts, but I remain confident in our decision, even when faced with guilt and second-guessing. In the end, I remind my kids that they can create their own big families someday!