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Through Illness and Health: The Reality of Caring for a Sick Spouse
When my partner, Jake, and I tied the knot back in October 2010, we decided to craft our own vows. I loved the idea of infusing them with personal touches and humor. I expressed my admiration for his playful nature and promised to nurture it, cheekily mentioning my reluctant support for his fantasy football obsession (which, let’s be real, I don’t actually care for).
I never included anything about “in sickness,” assuming it was a given. After all, who wouldn’t stand by their spouse during tough times like cancer, dementia, or a broken hip? That’s a commitment for later in life, right?
Zoom ahead six years and five months—on the dot. Jake is in surgery to remove a tumor occupying about a quarter of his brain. Post-surgery, we learn that while the operation was successful, he’s been diagnosed with grade III brain cancer and will require six weeks of daily radiation and 13 monthly chemotherapy sessions. Welcome to our new reality of “in sickness.”
I foolishly thought that cancer, or any serious illness, would pull us closer together. Surely, it would make us appreciate our bond and the fleeting nature of life. But in reality, cancer is a relentless force that works to drive a wedge between you. When it arrives, it doesn’t come alone; it brings along a whole entourage—physical ailments, emotional turmoil, personality shifts, financial strain, exhaustion, stress, anxiety, decreased intimacy, and changes in family dynamics. These challenges can make it incredibly difficult to maintain a united front as a couple. And let’s not forget the guilt.
The guilt I carry when I argue with Jake during his battle for survival is overwhelming. I wish I could be a rock for him, to shoulder everything on my own. But life doesn’t pause for illness, especially with kids in the picture. We still face the regular ups and downs of marriage, but now they’re amplified a thousandfold due to the enormous burden we’re carrying. There have been days when I questioned if we’d make it through this together. It’s not a romantic story, but it’s our reality.
A few months back, after I lost my cool for the umpteenth time, we sought help from couples therapy at a fantastic cancer support center in our area. One of the first lessons we learned was that even though we’re experiencing the same crisis, our individual responses can be completely different. What Jake needs to navigate his daily life as a cancer patient is often the opposite of what I think he requires as his caregiver. And you know what? We’re both right. There’s no one-size-fits-all solution; we just have to keep communicating to ensure resentment and frustration don’t overshadow our love for one another.
While I often struggle to understand how Jake is coping with his diagnosis—or if he’s coping at all (because denial can be a coping mechanism, I’m learning)—I remind myself that I can’t truly know what it’s like to have cancer, just like he can’t fully grasp what it means to be a spouse to someone with cancer. We’re both navigating this as best as we can.
We’re still in the thick of it, so I can’t say with certainty that everything will turn out fine. However, I can say that during illness, just like in health, the most important thing we can offer each other is a listening ear and unwavering support. As Jake reminded me in his vows many years ago, “No matter what we face, our love is the most crucial thing in our lives.” And you know what? It truly is.
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Summary
In this candid reflection, I share the challenges and realities of caring for a sick spouse, particularly during a cancer diagnosis. I discuss the emotional toll, the importance of communication, and the unyielding love that binds us, even in the toughest times.