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Lessons in Life and Light
For a year and a half before my partner and I began our journey to conceive, I eagerly consumed every bit of information on pregnancy, childbirth, and parenting I could find. I dove into documentaries, perused countless blogs and books, chatted with friends, and even interviewed a midwife—all in preparation for the joyful moment of becoming parents. I was convinced I had it all figured out. I envisioned a flawless pregnancy, a serene birth in a birth center using hypnosis, and a commitment to exclusive breastfeeding for at least the first six months. I planned to pump diligently when I returned to work, embrace baby-wearing, and co-sleep for a while. I even considered making my own baby food! To me, it all seemed so simple. Anyone who approached parenting differently clearly lacked the knowledge I possessed.
But then, life took an unexpected turn. I became pregnant, only to face the heartbreak of a miscarriage. Suddenly, my dreams of that ideal life felt shattered. I learned the hard way that many aspects of this journey are beyond our control. Despite following all the “rules” during my brief pregnancy, things didn’t unfold as I had hoped. I found myself in the very place I had pledged to avoid during my pregnancy—a hospital. My body wasn’t able to handle what was happening, and I needed medical assistance. I underwent a D&C on August 12th; surprisingly, the surgery was the least painful part of the entire experience.
Sometimes, life doesn’t go according to our plans. These unforeseen events can leave us feeling disoriented. Since my miscarriage, my perspective has shifted significantly. I’ve developed greater empathy for the women around me who make different choices regarding childbirth and parenting. Some may not be able to give birth naturally or choose not to breastfeed. This experience has taught me that every journey is unique and deserving of respect, and my role as a woman is to support rather than judge.
Earlier this year, I started my blog, “Lessons in Life and Light,” to explore my passions for life and photography. I never realized just how much this title would resonate with my personal journey, as it embodies the most valuable lesson I’ve learned so far.
I’m now looking forward to the return of my cycle so that my partner and I can try again. I still hold onto the hope of experiencing that magical pregnancy (complete with all the joys and challenges). I still intend to have a natural birth at a birth center using hypnosis, and I plan on breastfeeding and pumping, baby-wearing, co-sleeping, and practicing elimination communication in those early months (though I now question my earlier thoughts about making baby food!). However, I’ve come to understand that if things don’t go as planned, I won’t beat myself up. So much is truly beyond my grasp. What I can control is the love and support I give to my future child and to other women navigating their unique paths, just like me.
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In summary, my path to motherhood has taught me invaluable lessons about compassion, acceptance, and the unpredictability of life. While I still have dreams for my future family, I recognize that love and support matter most, regardless of how the journey unfolds.