The Money Dilemma: A Personal Reflection by Emma Carter

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Updated: Aug. 19, 2020

Originally Published: Oct. 18, 2014

I’ve come to realize that I’m not the most adept capitalist out there. Don’t misunderstand me; I appreciate cash just like anyone else, especially as someone with a hefty amount of student loans. However, the relentless chase for profits, savings, dividends, and all those other financial terms sound more like the chiming of distant bells than a siren’s call for me.

That said, I find myself constantly fixated on money. Growing up in a household that struggled financially, discussions about finances were a daily occurrence. We were often reminded of our limitations: “No, you can’t have those trendy sneakers because the rent needs to be paid,” or “We can’t afford a doctor’s visit unless you’re really unwell.” The reality of not having money came with its own challenges and, strangely, a sense of pride. You start to believe that those who have wealth are out of touch with the struggles of life, while you, of course, understand the harsh realities.

The Hidden Conversations About Money

Ironically, I found myself attending a prestigious boarding school in Connecticut, surrounded by peers from affluent backgrounds. To my surprise, these individuals—who seemed to have unlimited resources—rarely discussed money. It was as if they were under some secretive pact, guarding their financial status as if it were a closely-held treasure.

Now, as an adult navigating financial stability with my partner, I’m astounded that money remains a taboo topic among my friends and family. Despite achieving a level of financial security I never thought possible, conversations about salaries and earnings are conspicuously absent. It’s an odd paradox: while I can recount the details of my labor experience to strangers, I’ve only shared my annual income with a handful of people (aside from my partner and accountant).

Can you say for sure what your five closest friends earn? What about your relatives? It’s curious, isn’t it? Why do we feel more comfortable discussing everything from the latest TV series finale to our opinions on social issues, yet shy away from the topic of money?

Breaking the Silence Around Finances

There’s a case to be made for keeping financial details private. After all, if we were to have a conversation about real estate or educational choices without knowing someone’s financial background, it could lead to misunderstandings. But for many of us, there’s always someone earning more or less, and our perspectives on money are incredibly relative. If everyone wore signs showing their net worth, it would likely lead to a mix of feelings—both rich and poor—throughout the day.

Growing up, the constant reminders of financial struggles didn’t equip me with the tools to build wealth. Instead, they instilled a damaging narrative: that I shouldn’t expect to earn money or even want it. This silence around financial aspirations is deafening.

That’s precisely why we need to open up about money. Sharing our experiences can provide invaluable insights, both practically and philosophically.

The Importance of Sharing Financial Knowledge

Consider this: I’ve built many of my connections—be it friends, healthcare professionals, or even childcare providers—through recommendations. Why not apply the same approach to learning about finances? Those we trust can offer guidance in areas where we may feel unsure or uninformed. Our relationships are built on mutual reliance, and discussing money is a fundamental aspect of our lives.

Yet, we often treat financial matters as shameful, stressing about them in isolation. When we avoid open discussions about income and lifestyle choices, are we truly being honest with ourselves and each other? Money encompasses not just practical concerns but also our values and ethics, intertwining with uncomfortable truths about societal issues.

While these conversations might not be easy, they are essential. Let’s support one another by discussing our financial realities—our mistakes, our ambitions, and our fantasies—right after we return from that ski trip in Switzerland.

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Summary

In this reflective piece, Emma Carter explores her complex relationship with money, highlighting the societal taboos surrounding financial discussions. Growing up in a financially strained environment shaped her views on wealth and success, leading to an ongoing fixation on finances. Despite achieving some financial stability as an adult, she finds that conversations about money remain scarce among her peers. Emma encourages open dialogue about finances, emphasizing the need for trust and shared experiences to better understand our financial landscapes.