As much as I adore my kids like any devoted mother, there are days when I really question if I’m cut out for this parenting gig. The endless debates about misplaced shoes, the urgency of brushing teeth, and the discussions on screen time feel overwhelming. And let’s not even get started on the ethics of cheating at Candy Land or dealing with bugs.
I find myself dreading the thought of preparing a nutritious lunch and packing a separate snack, or making sure that homework has actually made its way into a backpack. The idea of hauling multiple loads of kids’ gear to the car, rushing to carpool, karate lessons, the library, or the grocery store for what seems like the hundredth time this week is exhausting. I’m tired of pretending to have answers to questions that stump me.
I don’t want to separate laundry into lights and darks only to find a forgotten load still languishing in the washer from last week. I want to avoid stepping on yet another Lego and certainly don’t want to deal with spit-up, making bottles, changing dirty diapers, or scraping mysterious green goo from under my fingernails. The fussing, whining, and crying can be too much some days.
I aspire to say “yes” more often than “no,” to cultivate patience, and to reduce the yelling. I yearn for moments of clarity amidst the chaos. I understand that after years of struggling with secondary infertility, I should cherish these fleeting moments while my children are little. I knew that motherhood wouldn’t always be a walk in the park, yet here I am, facing a day that feels particularly challenging.
Most days, I genuinely enjoy being a mom. I take pleasure in the daily rituals and the adorable, curious faces looking up at me. But today is not one of those days.
Today, I crave peace and quiet, a chance to recharge, and the TV remote all to myself—along with a refreshing nap. I want to shower without worrying about the myriad ways my infant could potentially hurt herself. I want to stand in front of the mirror and reassure the woman staring back at me, “You’re doing great, and it’s just been a tough day.” More than anything, I want to truly believe that.
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In summary, being a parent is a complicated role filled with ups and downs. It can be overwhelming at times, yet there are also moments of joy and connection that make it all worthwhile.