I want to take a moment to express my heartfelt apologies. I’m truly sorry that I have to go to work each day. I regret that I often have to tuck you in early at night because I’m worn out from a long day. When you’re unwell, my first thought is sometimes whether I can take a day off, and when you’re home sick, it pains me that I might not be the one caring for you.
I wish I could be there in the mornings to hear about your dreams, instead of being at my desk wishing I could swap places with you. I’m sorry I share my lunch with colleagues instead of with you. When your caregiver tells you I’ll be home soon, you don’t know how much I wish “soon” could mean “right now.”
I regret that I have to deal with topics like budgets and work policies instead of talking about butterflies or hosting princess tea parties. I miss out on racing toy cars on the kitchen floor because I’m ironing my work clothes instead. Work tends to follow me home, and I sometimes realize I see my computer screen more than I see the twinkle in your eyes.
I apologize for saying, “Just one more thing for work,” when you ask me to play hide-and-seek. I wish we could sleep in on rainy mornings, and I feel like weekends are too fleeting and evenings too hurried. I’m sorry that many of our dinners are hastily prepared, and that other kids have their moms pick them up from school while I can’t.
My Pinterest board is filled with craft ideas that we’ll likely never do together, and I often miss witnessing your milestones until you’ve already mastered them. You shouldn’t have to hear your dad and I discussing our schedules when it comes to doctor’s appointments. I wish I could kiss your boo-boos instead of healing them through a screen.
I want to volunteer in your classroom, but my own work keeps me tied up. I often joke about winning the lottery, and I regret not choosing a career with fewer hours and better pay. But most of all, I’m sorry for the guilt I carry. I sometimes cry myself to sleep, uncertain of how to balance motherhood with work.
I strive to provide for you in ways I didn’t have growing up: future opportunities, family trips, a college fund, and maybe even a few extra dress-up outfits. I want you to know I’m away for your benefit, but the reality is tougher than I ever anticipated. I never realized how deeply my heart would ache when I’m away from you.
Even when I feel overwhelmed with guilt, I am also incredibly grateful. I appreciate your understanding that I have to work. I’m thankful that you recognize the life my job allows us to have. And it warms my heart that you still call me your best friend, despite the busyness of our lives. When I hold your hand tightly, it means the world to me when you grip mine back just as firmly.
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In summary, I want you to know that while I may be away working, my love for you is immense. I hope you understand the sacrifices I make for our family.