Today was a tough day, and I felt myself starting to unravel. My partner is away for work for eight weeks, and my 8-month-old has been waking up every two hours for the past week. I often find myself fraying at the edges, but today it felt like I completely disintegrated. I found solace in my bathroom, locking the door for a brief five minutes—twice.
In search of help, I reached out to my partner, three close friends, and my mom. I also contacted my therapist and the local early childhood center. Overwhelmed and exhausted, I felt lost and heavy-hearted. It seemed impossible to regain control of my situation.
When I spoke with the intake officer, they always asked if family was nearby to provide support. My response was a mix of sobs and silence—“Yes and no.” While I have friends who feel like family, they have their own lives, jobs, and responsibilities, making it difficult to find time to assist me.
As I navigate these feelings, I’m trying to adopt a non-judgmental approach, allowing my emotions to flow like cars passing by. Thank you, Headspace, for this technique! I’m attempting to return to my daily meditation practice, finding that soft space within myself that embraces compassion—not just for others but also for me.
Postpartum depression affects 1 in 7 mothers, but I truly believe that number is an understatement. Many of us suffer silently. As I share my experiences, I discover more mothers who echo similar feelings of despair.
I’m currently on a journey to mend my torn seams, feeling exposed but determined. I’m doing this by reaching out for support, looking inward, and practicing self-compassion. I’m learning to take it one breath at a time, dancing in my kitchen with my kids, and going for walks on the beach with friends.
It’s essential to remember that I am not Superwoman. I may be strong, but I also need love and support. I can still show up for work and care for my family while allowing myself to feel every emotion. I can laugh, cry, and find ways to stitch myself back together. I urge everyone to stop labeling me as Superwoman—it doesn’t help, and it isn’t true. Let’s embrace our imperfections together!
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In summary, postpartum depression is a common struggle for many mothers, often amplified by the unrealistic expectations of being a “Superwoman.” Embracing vulnerability and seeking support are vital steps toward healing and self-acceptance.