Yes, you in the parking lot—I see you, and I can’t help but judge just a little. I notice how you grip his hand as he wriggles to break free. You hoist him into the air, and despite probably feeling drained from managing a tiny whirlwind, you flip him upside down and tickle his exposed tummy. His laughter echoes like music.
Understanding Your Journey
I think I know you. Maybe you work outside the home, or perhaps you’re a stay-at-home parent. You convince yourself that everything will be just fine, but there’s a nagging doubt in your mind about whether you’re making the right choices.
I catch a glimpse of you kneeling down to gently lift her chin, forcing her to meet your gaze outside the ice cream shop. Your frustration simmers because she just smacked her sister. Yet, instead of losing your cool, you speak softly, determined not to humiliate her. I can almost hear the thoughts in your head, “I just want to raise a good kid.” But I know you hold back those words.
The Weight of Responsibility
You look worn out, and sometimes you glance around as if you’re surprised by the number of kids declaring you as their mom. They cling to you, they’re loud, and yes, they can be sticky, but it’s clear you pour your heart and soul into caring for them. Everything you have, you give to them.
I see you gently wiping away the tears from your little girl’s face after she stumbled while running, turning a rock into a launchpad. She landed hard, but she looked straight at you, knowing you would be there. You manage to keep your expression calm, fully aware that your reaction sets the tone for hers.
Moments of Connection
The love you have for him shines through when he climbs onto your lap and touches your cheek for your attention. You pause your conversation with a friend, and I can see the warmth in your eyes as you realize just how much he adores you.
While driving, when she cries because the sunlight is bothering her, you selflessly remove your sunglasses and pass them to her.
At the playground, I see you snapping photos because really, they are adorable. And then you take a moment to check social media, just seeking a brief connection with another adult. I noticed that one childless person told you to cherish every moment while eyeing your phone. I’d totally trip them for you—no worries!
Self-Doubt and Reflection
I also see how hard you are on yourself every single day. Questions swirl in your mind: “Am I doing enough for them? Are they behaving normally? Am I ruining them? Am I enough?” But here I am, quietly watching you, and if you could truly see yourself, you would know that yes, you absolutely are enough.
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In Summary
While parenting can be overwhelming and self-doubt may creep in, remember that your efforts and love make all the difference. You are doing better than you think!