I want to take a moment to apologize for not being available to play with you today. I know how much you were looking forward to spending time together, and believe me, I was eager, too. Unfortunately, life got in the way, and while I see the sadness in your eyes, it hurts me even more. More than anything, I wish I could have been there with you.
Each day, I watch you grow, and it’s a bittersweet reminder of how quickly time passes. From your outgrown sneakers to the advice from family and friends reminding me that soon you’ll be off to college, it’s all happening so fast.
Today, I couldn’t join you for playtime or cuddle sessions because I was caught up in a long list of responsibilities at home and work. Motherhood has proven to be more demanding than I ever imagined. I feel guilty for allowing these duties to take away precious moments with you. It pains me to miss out on your experiences, but I promise to carve out more time for us tomorrow.
I realize this might not seem fair to you. Please know that my inability to be as present as other parents isn’t a reflection of my love for you; it’s because I care so deeply and want to create a bright future for us. I know you’re too young to fully grasp this now, but one day, when you have your own children, I hope you’ll understand the choices I made were all driven by love.
Sometimes, despite my best efforts to explain, you express feelings of being unloved when I’m too busy. It breaks my heart to hear you say, “I just want you,” and it’s made me question if I’m the one who hasn’t been understanding. Perhaps I’ve been so focused on building a better tomorrow that I overlooked the need to be present today.
What you needed from me right now was reassurance of my love. I see now that it wasn’t you who didn’t understand; it was me. I’ve been so caught up in planning for the future that I neglected to give you the attention you deserve in the moment. I don’t know how I’ll balance everything, but I’m making it my priority to show you my love today, and tomorrow, I’ll figure out the rest.
Thank you for teaching me this important lesson. I’ll always strive to be there for you, especially today.
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In summary, my dear child, I’m sorry for not always being there when you need me. Life can get hectic, but I promise to prioritize our time together moving forward. Thank you for your patience and for teaching me the importance of being present.