A few months back, while volunteering at a local school, I stumbled upon a conversation between two nine-year-old girls. One girl was casually ranking her classmates by preference, gushing about how a new boy topped her favorites list. The other girl, listening closely, asked in a barely audible voice, “What number am I on your list?”
That question struck a chord. Although I don’t have daughters and barely knew either girl, my heart ached for that little one seeking validation through a number. I wished I could have wrapped her in a warm hug and whispered, “No, no, no! You are not just a number on someone’s list!”
I longed to repeat, “Cherish yourself. Recognize your value. Your worth is not determined by someone else’s ranking.” My heart broke not just for her but for all girls who find themselves in similar situations, asking their own versions of that painful question. I felt a deep sadness for the girl I once was, someone who spent years tying her self-worth to external approval and numbers—whether it was grades, likes on social media, or even the scale.
In the time since that day, I’ve come to realize that, on certain days, I still find myself asking “What number am I?” Whether it’s the scale reading or the number of invitations to social events, many grown women still grapple with that perennial question: “Where do I stand on someone else’s list?”
We try to convince ourselves that we are above such things, and for the most part, we may be. Yet, deep down, the echoes of that little girl persist, asking where we rank in the eyes of others.
Unfortunately, there will always be individuals—whether intentionally or not—who are quick to remind us that we don’t measure up. But why do we allow our worth to hinge on how others view us? Why do we define ourselves by numbers?
And more crucially, how do we break this cycle?
While there’s no magic answer or simple guide to stop this relentless quest for validation, we must start by questioning the reasons behind it. Acknowledging that, despite our growth, we might still care more than we’d like about external validation is a vital step. The toll this need for approval takes on women is significant, both personally and collectively.
We must push back against the measuring sticks society provides, whether it’s the ideal body type or social media metrics. It’s essential to listen to other women who, just like that little girl, are quietly asking, “Where do I fit? What number am I?”
It takes practice, commitment, and a lot of determination to dismantle these lists and affirm to ourselves and one another, “You are not just a number!”
At some point, we all embody that little girl, whether we care to admit it or not. If we can shift the question from “What number am I?” to “How can we change this narrative?” we can start to take meaningful steps toward a healthier self-perception.
This cycle of evaluation and judgment must come to an end. If not for ourselves, then certainly for future generations of girls.
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In summary, every girl, young or old, should remember that her worth cannot be quantified by numbers. It’s essential to cultivate self-love and reject the societal pressures that try to define us. Let’s empower each other to move beyond mere rankings and embrace our true value.