As a parent, I find myself often saying things like, “What’s happening here?” when what’s really on my mind is, “Why on earth are you two squabbling again over a toy? You’ve got a mountain of them!” or “Really?” when I’m actually wondering, “What was I thinking when I decided to get out of bed today?”
And then there’s the classic, “Please don’t do that again!” when my inner voice is screaming, “If you do that one more time, I might just lose it!” The reality of parenting is that it’s a wild emotional rollercoaster you can’t fully grasp until you’re in the thick of it. You experience joy, frustration, pride, and love—all within mere minutes. It’s exhausting yet somehow magical.
However, there are days when the magic fades and the reality of parenthood sets in, and that’s when I wish I could be completely honest with my kids:
- Guess what? I really don’t want to go to your activities either!
I’m tired of worrying about uniforms, snacks, and your moods on the days you’d rather skip it. And let’s not even talk about how uncomfortable those seats are. I love you dearly, but sometimes I just want to relax.
- When you read to me, it’s a test of my patience!
I’m thrilled you’re learning, but the urge to finish your sentences is overwhelming. It takes every ounce of willpower to keep from yelling, “You’ve got this!” and instead nod encouragingly.
- I don’t always want to tuck you in at night.
Sometimes, I just want you to fall asleep without that nightly ritual. While I kiss you goodnight, I imagine myself on the couch, enjoying some peace and quiet with a snack.
- There are moments when I don’t want to kiss your boo-boos.
I wish I could easily tell when you need comfort and when you’re just being dramatic. I miss the days when you’d let me hold you close, but you’re growing up way too fast.
- Bath time isn’t always my favorite.
I’d rather not deal with the mess and the tears when water gets in your eyes. And seriously, can you not notice when you need to shower?
- I probably hate your homework more than you do.
It’s exhausting reminding you how important it is when, truthfully, you won’t need most of it later in life. And watching you write so slowly? Pure torture!
- Going anywhere with water can be exhausting.
I would much rather relax in the sun than keep a watchful eye on you. And why is it that you suddenly have to go to the bathroom after you just got wet?
- Sometimes family dinners drive me up the wall.
On the nights when I make something I’m proud of, hearing you say you hate it is a challenge. Why does it take you an eternity to finish dinner when snacks disappear in seconds?
- Your interests can be a snooze fest.
I want you to feel valued, so I pretend to be captivated by your tales about the latest movie or game. Inside, I’m just hoping for a distraction.
- I worry too, and I don’t always know if everything will be okay.
I want to protect you from everything, but I know I need to let you stumble sometimes. It’s tough to maintain a brave face when I’m feeling anxious underneath.
- I wish I could control every aspect of your life.
Sending you out into the world is terrifying. I want to guide your choices, but I know I need to let you learn from your mistakes.
- Above all, I want you to realize how much I love you.
The depth of a parent’s love is something only understood when you become a parent yourself. I hope one day you appreciate all that I do and the sacrifices I make for you.
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In the end, parenthood is a beautiful mess of challenges and joys, and through it all, my love for you remains unwavering.