As I prepare to resume my professional duties tomorrow, I find myself grappling with mixed emotions. It is my hope that the transition will be more challenging for me than for you. The past twelve weeks have flown by far more quickly than I anticipated. I had assumed that returning to work after the birth of my second child would be a smoother experience, yet it feels even more daunting than I had expected.
To my precious baby daughter #2, your newborn cuddles have been a source of immense joy every day. And to my firstborn, baby daughter #1, the time we’ve spent together has been incredibly cherished, especially since I had longed for these moments. With the arrival of my second child, I have become even more acutely aware of how fleeting this time is, and the reality that it is irreplaceable weighs heavily on my heart.
As I prepare to head back to work, I reflect on the various reassurances I have received: that you will admire my dedication to hard work, that time apart will enhance our moments together, and that many mothers must work to support their families. People also mention that you are too young to remember this period and that you will adapt. Perhaps these assertions hold some truth, but they do little to ease my anxiety.
It is my sincere desire for you to respect my professional passion; however, I never want you to feel as though I prioritize my career over our family. As an assistant principal at a high school, I have the privilege of nurturing over 600 students, an endeavor I love. Still, the thought of missing out on your precious milestones pains me deeply.
Could your father and I manage on one income? Perhaps, but such a decision would come with its own ramifications. It could limit our ability to provide for you and increase the burden on your father as the sole provider. I question whether this path would enable us to be the best parents we aspire to be or provide you with the life we envision.
Tomorrow marks my return to work, and I recognize the fortune I possess compared to many. I am grateful that your father’s schedule allows him to spend quality time with you during the week. I am fortunate to have a supportive partner who embraces my career ambitions. Additionally, I have found a daycare provider I trust implicitly, and I am surrounded by family members who offer assistance whenever needed. I also take comfort in knowing that I work at a school where my colleagues and supervisors value family and welcome you with open arms.
You are both surrounded by a network of caring individuals, and though I cannot be with you at all times, I take solace in knowing you are in good hands. However, my wish remains that I could be the one by your side.
As I return to work, I want to make a few promises to you. I will strive to be present during our time together, prioritizing quality over quantity. I will endeavor to disconnect from work, set aside my phone, and focus solely on both of you. Whether we engage in exciting activities or simply unwind in our pajamas watching movies, I will make every effort to be fully engaged. You both deserve nothing less.
As I embark on this new chapter, I hope that by the time you choose to start families of your own, societal standards will reflect a better understanding of the need for extended parental leave — twelve weeks is simply inadequate. I regret that I cannot spend more time with you, but please know that my love for you remains unwavering even in our time apart. I am diligently working to provide for you, and when I return home, I will shed all other roles and solely embrace my identity as your mother, for that is my most important role.
In conclusion, I am grateful for the journey ahead, and I look forward to the moments we will share.
Love,
Mama
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Summary
This letter articulates the emotional complexities of returning to work as a mother of two. The author expresses her hopes and fears regarding her career and family life, emphasizing the importance of quality time with her daughters while acknowledging the societal challenges faced by working mothers.