In my journey through motherhood, the aspiration to be a guiding figure for you has been profound. After experiencing the heartache of losing two pregnancies, I found myself yearning for you with an intensity that shaped my every thought and prayer. When you finally arrived, it was as if a whirlwind had entered my life, leaving an indelible mark on my heart—a moment I will cherish forever.
Becoming a mother to a daughter is an experience unlike any other. I resonate with the realities of being a girl; I understand the complexities of growing up in a female body, the awkwardness of adolescence, and the rollercoaster of emotions that accompany it. I remember the first time I felt the weight of societal expectations, the confusion of self-worth, and the intimate moments shared with friends in the school restroom. Though our stories may not be identical, they intertwine in ways that reveal our vulnerabilities.
My instinct is to shield you from the harshness of the world. I would sacrifice anything if it meant protecting your spirit from its cruelties. I imagined I would resolve all my personal struggles before you arrived—embracing my body, conquering my insecurities, and overcoming my mental health challenges. I envisioned being the epitome of a perfect role model by the time you entered this world.
Yet, here I am—an imperfect mother striving to do my best. While I have learned to embrace my journey, I continue to confront challenges that remind me I am human. Through this, I have gained a crucial insight: it is permissible to face difficulties. Our collective struggles often unite us.
I am a woman who grapples with self-identity, wrestles with doubt, and navigates the complexities of body image. I will never embody the ideal role model. However, I am a model who tries—a model who believes in her worth, and I hope you come to see your own worth as well.
I am a safe space for you to express your struggles and uncertainties without fear of judgment. My own messiness is proof that it’s okay to falter. I possess an unwavering faith that the best is yet to come, and I pride myself on maintaining an open connection with your heart.
As I observe you, with your radiant brown eyes and laughter that resonates deeply, I feel a powerful urge to shield you from all harm. But I understand that you must navigate your own path, filling the blank pages of your life as you choose. I will be your unwavering supporter and friend throughout your journey.
I want to convey this truth to you: nothing could ever sever the bond between us. No decision, mistake, or misstep could lessen my love for you. I may stumble in my role as your mother daily, but my adoration for you is boundless. I cherish your spirit, creativity, and the extraordinary essence that you are.
You are not merely beautiful; you are the embodiment of beauty and magic. You have exceeded all my dreams and wishes.
With all my love,
Your Mama