I’ve struggled with a chronic skin picking disorder for as long as I can remember. As a child, I picked at my cuticles, and as a teenager, I found myself digging into my skin, leaving wounds that would sometimes bleed. My condition, known as dermatillomania or excoriation disorder, involves compulsively scratching, picking, and gouging at my skin.
At first glance, I appear unaffected. There are no visible scars or blemishes, and my hands may look normal. However, those close to me can sense the truth. I often find myself running my fingers over my lips, searching for cracks, or focusing on the naturally dry areas of my feet that I can’t resist picking. This compulsive behavior can lead to hours of picking, sometimes causing pain or even drawing blood.
Despite my desire to stop, I find the act of picking instinctive and comforting. It offers a brief escape from the chaos of my thoughts, allowing me to feel a sense of control, even if it’s an illusion. Dermatillomania is classified as a mental illness related to obsessive-compulsive disorder, characterized by the repetitive act of picking at one’s own skin, regardless of whether it is healthy or not.
I have battled this disorder for over 20 years, experiencing various levels of severity. In my teenage years, the behavior escalated to self-harm, but in my 20s, it faded into the background. Today, it resurfaces under stress, boredom, or emotional turmoil, and I find myself reaching for band-aids more often than I would like to admit.
Yet, there is hope. Dermatillomania is manageable through therapy, medication, and techniques like habit reversal training, which helps redirect my urge to pick. I didn’t realize I had a diagnosable condition until my 30s, and understanding it has been crucial in my journey. Still, I continue to pick and bleed, and despite support from my partner, I face daily challenges.
I share my story not only to alleviate my own feelings of isolation but to help others facing similar struggles. For more information on dermatillomania and to find supportive resources, you can visit The TLC Foundation.
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Living with dermatillomania, a chronic skin picking disorder, presents daily challenges that can lead to physical pain and emotional distress. While the urge to pick is often uncontrollable, there are effective treatments available. Awareness and understanding of the condition can offer hope and support to those affected. Sharing experiences can foster a sense of community and reduce feelings of isolation.