Yesterday, I underwent a sterilization procedure, and I couldn’t help but notice the irony that my last visit to a hospital bed was when my second child entered the world.
At nearly 42 years old and the mother of two boys, it sometimes feels like I’ve raised a whole troop. Once my youngest was born, we all felt certain that our family was complete.
Yet, as I was wheeled into the operating room, a profound wave of sadness washed over me, causing me to burst into tears.
Behind me was a man, likely the anesthesiologist, who asked if I was okay, but I couldn’t see his face. I attempted to laugh through my tears, saying, “I just can’t believe this is happening. I’m getting sterilized. It’s all a lot to take in.”
The nurse beside me nodded in understanding, but the man sounded perplexed when he responded, “But isn’t this what you want?”
If only life’s choices were so straightforward! I didn’t get a chance to reply before they set up the IV, and I didn’t wake up until several hours later.
Now, I’m resting in bed with a sore abdomen and overwhelming fatigue, yet I’m thankful that the surgery went smoothly. I know I made the right choice, just as I realized years ago that we were done growing our family. I am reminded that even the most significant decisions can be accompanied by tears. It’s perfectly normal to grieve, especially when it marks the end of a chapter in life.
My little ones are becoming young men, and I will never have another baby growing inside me. Listening to them bicker and laugh outside my bedroom door, I think, “Thank goodness!” But, oh, how bittersweet it all feels.
What’s next for us? Soccer games, new friendships, school, and then—gulp—preteen years. Perhaps grandchildren will be part of my future, or maybe not.
Everyone talks about wanting to have kids, but no one discusses the moment when you know it’s time to stop. Transitioning into this new life phase is quite the experience—deeply bittersweet indeed.
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