Updated: April 24, 2020
Originally Published: November 24, 2005
I once experienced a significant emotional challenge over a set of ramekins. This situation, however, extends beyond mere bakeware; it encapsulates the complexities of stress, familial expectations, and the nuances of marriage. This narrative revolves around my in-laws.
From the outset, I recognized that to navigate my new family dynamics, I would need to relinquish certain expectations. Spending extended periods with anyone involves adjusting to their emotional fluctuations. My mother-in-law is akin to a theme park, complete with unpredictable highs and lows. For instance, I once declined her offer of tea and faced a week of cold treatment. When I disclosed my dietary restriction regarding pork, I was later served what I was told was turkey, but was clearly not. Our interactions resembled a tense dance, both of us wary and on edge.
Over time, we developed a mutual disdain that was almost routine. She often referred to me in the third person, while I resorted to hiding behind my children, utilizing them as a buffer against her comments.
Our uneasy coexistence lasted for several years until a particularly challenging two-week visit coincided with the arrival of my youngest son, who was just a month old. Sleep deprivation and a stubborn case of thrush afflicted both me and the baby. It was an inopportune time for a visit, but a grandmother’s desire to meet her new grandchild is often insatiable.
Had this visit lasted only a weekend, I might have preserved my sanity. However, my in-laws, who reside in England, intended to maximize their visit.
Trouble began four days in:
Mother-in-law: “Is Sarah OK? She seems unusually pale lately.”
Me: (standing a foot away) “I’m fine. This is just my complexion.”
Mother-in-law: “I thought Sarah wanted to be a writer; I haven’t seen her book in stores.”
Me: “Well, I did just have a baby.”
Mother-in-law: “I understand Sarah doesn’t want the toddler eating sweets, but I thought that’s what grandparents are for.”
Me: (grinding my teeth)
I frequently sought refuge, claiming nursing sessions or short naps, which sometimes devolved into hiding away and watching mindless television.
One day, I descended from one of my hiding spots only to find my kitchen completely rearranged. My groceries had been discarded and replaced with unfamiliar items. It was then that I noticed the dish that would lead to my unraveling.
On the floor lay one of my prized, imported white ramekins, now filled with wet dog food. At that moment, my focus narrowed, and my frustration escalated. I had previously shared the significance of these dishes with my mother-in-law, and we had even argued about their proper use. I had hidden them on the top shelf, far from her reach.
Yet, there they were.
In a fit of rage and despair, I scrubbed the ramekin with too much fervor, resulting in it slipping from my grasp and shattering against the sink. I felt defeated; I had lost my dish, my kitchen, and my composure. Sinking to the floor, I wept uncontrollably, overwhelmed by the demands of a newborn, an attention-seeking toddler, and an intrusive mother-in-law. That ramekin had represented the last shred of control I possessed.
When my husband and his parents returned from the park, they found me in a heap, muttering incoherently about dog food and broken dishes. My husband guided me into the bathroom, and after I shared my experience, he laughed. Initially infuriating, his reaction was ultimately what I needed.
They were just dishes; my life remained intact. The dogs could adjust their diet, and the only real loss was a piece of glass. While I wish I could say I emerged from the bathroom as a more enlightened person, I took an additional fifteen minutes to regroup before returning to the kitchen to restore order.
Once I rearranged everything to my satisfaction, I felt a sense of relief. I even resisted the temptation to cook revenge soufflés for everyone except her.
Regrettably, I have not used my beloved ramekins since that day, and the upcoming annual visit from my in-laws has me reflecting on that incident. Now nearly a year postpartum and considerably more rested, I am optimistic that I will handle the stress of the next British invasion more gracefully. I even boxed up the remaining three ramekins and tucked them away in my closet—just in case.
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In summary, my experience serves as a reminder that familial relationships can be challenging, especially during times of personal stress. It is essential to find methods for coping and maintaining one’s sense of self amidst the chaos.