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Were Our Parents Pretending Too?
When my partner, James, agreed to start a family, I was genuinely surprised. Perhaps I shouldn’t have been, considering we had chosen a name for a hypothetical daughter back when we were merely dating. The name? Mia, inspired by Uma Thurman’s character from Pulp Fiction. Not that we envisioned her following in such a role model’s footsteps.
Despite having our daughter’s name picked out, I was taken aback by James’s enthusiastic agreement to have a child. This conversation took place while I was cozied up in pajamas, snacking on junk food, with a mountain of dirty dishes towering in the sink. It wasn’t the composed, serene atmosphere I thought would be necessary for such a significant discussion. In fact, I probably looked like an unusually aged teenager.
I often find myself caught between two extremes when it comes to completing tasks. When I’m passionate about something, I pursue it with reckless abandon. Yet, the mundane tasks I dislike seem to linger indefinitely. If I were to embark on an empire-building venture, I would likely do so efficiently, establishing myself as a benevolent leader. However, I would simultaneously be the only empress with a laundry pile reaching my waist.
When our son, Leo, arrived, we wisely refrained from naming him Mia, despite it being the only name we had settled on. I frequently reflect on our choices as parents. We do manage to wash the dishes more regularly now, and the laundry doesn’t teeter as precariously as before. Yet, I still grapple with feelings of inadequacy. At times, I find myself stifling laughter when Leo does something mischievous. Other moments, I wish he would go to bed so I could enjoy some peace, though I also relish our shared fun.
The shift to parenthood hasn’t transformed me into the archetypal mother I envisioned. I imagined that I would lose touch with pop culture and chaos, yet I remain unchanged in many respects. My hair didn’t magically arrange itself into an elegant bun upon becoming a mother. Instead, I often find myself in pajamas at 4 PM, scanning channels for something entertaining—perhaps a nostalgic countdown on VH1 instead of children’s programming. Wracked with guilt for potentially exposing Leo to the latest celebrity scandals, I choose to dance along with DJ Lance Rock instead, though my enthusiasm is sometimes lacking.
Despite reading numerous parenting books and articles, I still feel unprepared. Most days, I rely on my instincts and navigate through parenting as if I’m flying by the seat of my pants. I often pretend to have everything figured out, as if I’m the one in charge, even when I feel like a child myself.
This leads me to ponder: were our parents also pretending? I suspect they were, and my mother’s laughter at my musings only reinforces this idea.
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In summary, parenting often feels like a performance, and many of us may be unsure of our roles, just as our parents likely were. The journey is filled with contradictions and complexities, but it’s also an opportunity for growth, laughter, and learning.