I had always envisioned an unmedicated birth. My partner and I diligently attended hypnobirthing classes, sought the guidance of midwives, and absorbed all the right documentaries. I was determined: no early cord clamping, no pitocin, no epidural, and absolutely no painkillers. I was ready to embrace the power of womanhood.
But then, my baby had other plans. He made quite the entrance, complete with a surprise poop in the womb, which led to distress and a dramatic drop in his heart rate. The result? An emergency C-section. I knew C-sections were common, and many women even choose them, but nothing could have prepared me for my emotional response. I was blindsided by the recovery from major surgery and how different it felt from the perfect birth I had imagined. I was caught off guard by the feelings that emerged after my son arrived.
In the days following his birth, I was bombarded with congratulations. Friends without children offered cheerful remarks like, “Congrats!” and “Great job, Mama!” But those with kids posed questions that left me puzzled: “Did you ever think you could love something so much?” and “Welcome to the most incredible ride of your life!”
I felt lost. Why wasn’t I flooded with joy? Looking into my son’s eyes, I only saw a tiny being who seemed indifferent to me. I couldn’t figure out how to soothe him, and the reality of being responsible for his happiness felt overwhelming. And to top it off, he was wreaking havoc on my body! I found myself crying—often. This was not the experience I had longed for.
Eventually, as the weeks passed, clarity emerged. The tears lessened, and I began to shift out of the fog of postpartum emotions. When I shared my feelings with other mothers, many revealed they had felt similarly lost after giving birth. A revelation struck me: why hadn’t anyone warned me about this? It turns out, not everyone experiences unbridled joy postpartum; some women feel completely overwhelmed, and that’s perfectly okay.
The narratives surrounding new motherhood often seem to boil down to two extremes: the blissful maternal figure who can seamlessly juggle everything or the mother who is barely holding it together. The truth is, there are countless shades of gray in between. Expecting mothers deserve to hear about these realities! After all, while they may be sensitive and hormonal during pregnancy, new moms are still navigating a whirlwind of emotions—all while caring for a tiny human.
Let’s be honest with new moms about what to expect. Sure, go to the movies and enjoy dinner out with your partner while you can. And sleep as much as possible—seriously, aim for 18 hours a day if you can! Start prepping now, like using lotion on your nipples to avoid the inevitable chapping from breastfeeding. And hey, get a pedicure and a haircut before the baby arrives. You might not have time for those luxuries later. You’ll also want to cherish those intimate moments with your partner because, let’s be real, that may take a backseat for a while.
Being a new mom is a thrilling yet terrifying experience. It can feel isolating and confusing, but it’s undeniably worth it. If you’re a new mom reading this, take a moment to celebrate your strength. You’ve created a life! You’ve embarked on an incredible journey that will only deepen your capacity for love.
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In summary, new motherhood is a complex blend of emotions and experiences that isn’t always as rosy as depicted. It’s essential to embrace all aspects of this journey and support one another through the ups and downs.