When I stumbled upon an old, yellowed index card labeled Compromise Cake, my mind immediately wandered to whether my mom ever baked it. And if she did, did she ever savor a slice? The woman I remember was all about rigidity. By the time I arrived as the fourth child, this cake had long been absent from her limited baking repertoire. In the aftermath of my parents’ divorce, she seemed to abandon her efforts to maintain relationships, distancing herself from neighbors, old friends, family, and even us, her children.
Or perhaps it was they who turned their backs on her, unable to look past her struggles with mental illness and divorce—topics often whispered about, much like a dreaded disease that one should avoid discussing too closely. I think my mother’s bitterness and grief about her circumstances made it difficult for others to see her in a compassionate light, which might have eased her own heartache as she navigated the challenges of being a divorced mom of four, labeled as mentally unstable. The only formal diagnosis I ever overheard was “burned out schizophrenic,” a term spoken in hushed tones by a medical professional; we were never informed directly what was wrong. One moment, she was just known as ‘crazy,’ and that was all.
In school, my friends assumed she was merely depressed. But as I entered junior high, she gained a reputation as a kind and cool mom, taking in kids looking for refuge from more strict households. While she didn’t condone underage drinking by providing alcohol, we found that when we experimented with drugs, it felt like we were tuned into her frequency. She cheered on my artistic endeavors, never batting an eye when I used crayons and markers to draw directly on the TV screen during our late-night gatherings.
I was too young to understand who had given up on whom first—my mother or the world around her. Over time, the once-socially vibrant bride morphed into a sometimes volatile, indifferent woman, firm in her ways, especially when it came to baking.
Some believe that compromise is fundamental to life and society, while others refuse to acknowledge the term, let alone engage in it. Her go-to cake was Devil’s Food, often left to harden on the sideboard. My teenage sister, focused on her figure, avoided it, while my brother wasn’t convinced about the questionable ingredients our “crazy” mother used in her homemade goods, preferring store-bought treats. I spent the most time with her, trying to make sense of her discontent, all the while drawn to the cake. Despite my siblings’ teasing nicknames—Chubby, Pudge-o, and Thunder Thighs—I resisted indulging too much. Photographic evidence reveals I was only slightly above the ideal weight, hardly warranting such ridicule.
Finding that recipe card for Compromise Cake made me reflect on how innocent the term once sounded in mid-twentieth-century America, contrasting sharply with its more contentious connotation today. Some view compromise as essential for civilization, while others shy away from it entirely.
Recently, I even sent a letter to our president, sharing the recipe in a show of solidarity for his attempts at political compromise. I suggested he serve it at the Super Committee on Deficit Reduction meeting, a gathering aimed at bridging the growing divide in our country, where the “C” word seemed taboo. “You might want to wait until they’ve had a slice or two before revealing the name,” I playfully advised. Unfortunately, I never received a reply, and the committee did not meet its objectives.
The card bore the name of its creator, Angela Fletcher. I’m unsure if she was part of my mother’s circle from Burlingame, a friend from her teaching days, or a neighbor in Castro Valley. But if she was typical of her era, I believe she had nothing but good intentions when she named a cake “compromise.”
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In summary, the story of Compromise Cake serves as a reminder of the complex relationships we navigate in life. It illustrates the delicate balance between understanding and acceptance, showing that even the most troubled situations can lead to sweet resolutions.