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The Most Memorable Preschool Pickup Ever
Parenting
As I drove home from my daughter’s inaugural day at preschool, I was hit with an intense wave of emotion—something I had become familiar with since embracing motherhood. In that moment, I felt an urge to unleash a double middle finger salute at the universe.
Looking back, I should’ve anticipated the whirlwind of emotions that day would bring. We had hyped up her first day all summer long, and the night before, she tossed and turned, unable to sleep. By morning, she was up earlier than normal, complaining of a stomachache that even a pink, berry-flavored Tums couldn’t remedy.
The drop-off went smoothly, but when the bell rang and the kids spilled out, I stood outside, cradling my baby on my hip. As Chloe appeared through the school’s double doors, she looked small and weary, her eyes squinting against the sunlight and searching for me in a sea of parents. When she finally spotted the school bus, her expression shifted into one of relief.
“Chloe!” I called out again, waving enthusiastically. But when our eyes locked, she burst into tears. That’s when I noticed the card in her hand, featuring a cartoon bus and the words “Chloe R. #609” emblazoned in black marker. In that moment, I was clueless about who Chloe R. was or if my Chloe had even boarded the right bus. All I knew was that Chloe M., my baby, was sobbing uncontrollably on the front steps, shouting, “I don’t want to go with you! I’m taking the bus!”
I forced a smile at the other parents, trying to play it cool, as if to say, “Ah, kids and their antics! Isn’t it frustrating when they act like you’re a kidnapper?” Meanwhile, every other child was sprinting towards their moms, beaming with joy. I felt like I was alone in this chaos.
Taking a deep breath, I reminded myself not to take her outburst personally. “I know you’re disappointed about the bus, sweetheart. They must have mixed you up with another Chloe. I’m just taking you home.”
“No! I want to take the bus!” she screamed.
“I understand, darling,” I said, reaching out to comfort her, but she swatted my hand away.
Not taking it personally had become my mantra over the summer, especially as my sweet, affectionate 3½-year-old had begun expressing her frustrations more openly. I reminded myself that she was likely feeling overshadowed by her baby sister, and this was her way of coping. Of course, she was happy to see me.
“But I wanted Daddy to pick me up! I hate you!” she shouted.
In that moment, I felt a sting of hurt and embarrassment. Part of me wanted to shout back, “I hate you too!” But instead, I held my tongue, determined not to let her get a rise out of me.
By the time she settled down enough to put on her helmet and climb into the bike trailer, we were the last ones lingering outside the school. I began pedaling home, and as we passed a bubbling creek, she declared, “I don’t like you because you don’t do enough favors for me.”
What? Favors? For you? You spent nearly a year in my womb!
I pushed out 8½ pounds of you for 30 hours. I’ve sacrificed sleep for you, and I continue to do so. I’ve set aside my career for you. I’m your teacher, chauffeur, chef, butler, personal shopper, hairdresser, housekeeper, laundress, secretary, and assistant. I’m your mother, and my love for you runs deep—deeper than you can fathom.
The next red light gave me a moment to collect myself. Turning to her with a patient tone, I asked, “What kind of favors would you like me to do for you that I haven’t already, sweetheart?”
She looked up at me from under the visor of her pink helmet and retorted, “Don’t talk to me!”
Despite the challenges, I truly love my kid. Motherhood is filled with surprises, and as Chloe embarks on her educational journey, I remember something my sixth-grade earth science teacher once said: “There’s a fine line between love and hate.”
At that time, I didn’t grasp her words, but now I understand their meaning. If I ever crossed paths with her again, I’d admit that I rely on my husband for questions about planets or rock formations. But the concept of love and hate? I get it now.
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Summary
This narrative captures the emotional rollercoaster of a mother during her daughter’s first day of preschool. It highlights the challenges of parenting, the misunderstandings that can arise, and the deep love that underpins it all.