Dear Kids,
I want to take a moment to tell you just how much I love you. My love for each of you is as deep as my love for your younger brother, Max, who requires a bit more of my time and focus due to his special needs. I can see how much you cherish him, and your affection for him truly warms my heart. The bond you share, filled with hugs, Rice Krispies treats, and playful moments, is something special. Max may not say much, but his laughter is contagious, and his bright blue glasses frame eyes that radiate pure joy. I know you find him incredible too.
I understand that it can be frustrating at times. I’m sure it gets tiresome to hear me repeat, “I need to help Max right now,” or “I can’t go out, I have to stay home with Max.” There was a time when I was the adventurous mom, the one who climbed sand dunes and took thrilling rides at amusement parks. These days, that version of me feels like a distant memory, often preoccupied with Max, who at almost 3 still struggles to express what he needs. And let me tell you, he is fast, especially when he decides to run off!
I’m doing my best to balance my time between all of you. I hope you can see my efforts. Sometimes, it’s not all about Max. There are moments when I just want to enjoy a chat with friends at the pool instead of watching the same headstand for the hundredth time. I’m still that mom, but I also recognize that you each need my attention, too.
When Dad is away, I make it a point to share my bed with one of you. I love those quiet moments when we can lie together and talk about nothing in particular. I truly hear you when you ask why we don’t go out to dinner more often. Did you know we’ve managed to go out twice in the past two weeks? That was all for you! I even arranged for a babysitter so we could build sandcastles without interruption and swim together, just like old times. I want to be the mom you remember.
Being a mom is a challenging journey, and I’m learning every day. I adore you more than the stars in the sky, and I want to hold your hands, smooth your hair back, and pull you close for those long hugs. Please remember to tell me when I seem distant or preoccupied. I know I mess up sometimes, and I can be a bit selfish with my time, but I promise I am committed to trying harder. Max is just one part of our family, and you three are the ones who have truly shaped my view of motherhood.
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In summary, I want you to know that my love for you is unwavering, and I am striving to be the best mom I can be, even amidst the challenges we face. Your understanding and patience mean the world to me.