Dear Mama,
I see you lying in bed, grappling with the weight of your thoughts, wishing you could simply drift away instead of facing another day. I understand that there might be a part of you questioning, “Is enduring this life truly worth it?” Yet, I also notice that flicker of determination in your eyes as you recall the reasons you keep fighting.
In that moment, you gather your strength to rise because your little one is crying and your older child is waiting for breakfast. You know they depend on you. I feel your heart as you cradle the baby and watch your “big kid” devour his meal, all the while wondering how you came to deserve such joy, while wrestling with feelings of self-loathing for ever wishing to vanish. The love you feel for your children is powerful, but it’s often intertwined with guilt, leaving you in tears that are both thankful and filled with shame.
Each day you navigate is a testament to your resilience. Though perfection is far from your reality, it’s enough that you are present. Whether at work, home, or school, you continue to show up. Sure, dinner might consist of Pop-Tarts eaten in the car, and personal hygiene may take a backseat, but those details pale in comparison to your unwavering determination to be there for your kids. You are still here and you are still fighting against all odds.
You are a warrior, a queen, a symbol of the unyielding force of love. Others might judge you for your appearance or the way you handle parenting, but I want you to know that none of that matters. What truly counts is that you showed up, you loved your children, and that should be enough.
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With understanding,
A Kindred Spirit
Summary
This letter speaks to mothers struggling with mental health while caring for their children. It acknowledges their daily battles and emphasizes their strength and love. The message encourages them to keep fighting and provides links to resources that can help them navigate their journey.