As a new mother, I find myself captivated by the sweet scent of my newborn’s hair and the gentle warmth of her tiny body. Perhaps it’s the surge of postpartum hormones, but I can’t help but fantasize about having another one of these soft, rosy-cheeked bundles of joy.
Many of my friends have shared that the early days of motherhood filled them with a sense of finality, making them certain they didn’t want another child. They were overwhelmed by sleepless nights, leaking milk, and the physical changes that came with pregnancy. But for me, it’s quite the opposite.
I have proof of my baby fever from my first child—just four days after his birth, I was already scouring fertility websites and Googling whether other moms experienced similar postpartum yearnings. Fast forward to today, three weeks into my journey with baby number two—who, by the way, arrived two years after her brother—and I’m already contemplating the idea of a third child. This is new territory for me, as I never considered having three children, but suddenly it seems like a wonderful prospect. They say that post-birth, you might feel a little loopy for a while, right?
Having experienced a relatively low-stress pregnancy and now cradling this beautiful newborn, I’m acutely aware that the days of rocking her to sleep and carrying her close are numbered. I strive to savor each moment, but the reality of time passing always lingers. Those precious early weeks are fleeting; before you know it, they grow into lively toddlers, and I want to cherish every bit of this newborn bliss.
As I reflect on just a few weeks ago, when I felt the delightful kicks of the third trimester, I’m reminded of how quickly this phase passes. I glance back at early photos of my son, who has now been dubbed “the little tornado” due to his propensity for chaos around the house.
The longing for another pregnancy is a potent force. It’s something I felt even before becoming a mother and has only intensified since. I know that in a few months or years, the desire for another baby will resurface with a vengeance. Even my energetic toddler, with his habit of tossing Legos and smearing yogurt, brings back fond memories of those early days when he would snuggle close to me.
This morning, cradling my newborn in one arm while my toddler nestled tightly against me on the couch, I felt an overwhelming surge of happiness. It was as if everything was perfectly in place, with my children physically connected to me, reminding me of the early days of their lives. That warmth and contentment make it hard to resist the idea of wanting to experience it all over again.
It’s no surprise that when experienced mothers hold my new baby, they smile and say, “This is dangerous,” as they recall their own overwhelming maternal instincts. How many families have expanded thanks to those “dangerous” feelings? The instinct to nurture is incredibly strong for many women, and the thought of infertility—whether primary or secondary—is heart-wrenching. We are inherently designed for this.
Even years from now, when I embrace my grown children or hold someone else’s newborn, I’ll likely reminisce about the sweet longing for life within me. I’ll fondly remember the delicate, wispy-haired, puckered-lipped bundles I was blessed to care for in those beautiful early days.
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Summary
The author reflects on the overwhelming emotions and desires that accompany postpartum experiences. Despite many friends experiencing a sense of finality after having a baby, she finds herself longing for another child shortly after welcoming her second. The article explores the potent maternal instincts fueled by postpartum hormones and emphasizes the fleeting nature of early motherhood.