Mental Health Matters
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From a young age, I’ve experienced panic attacks. While I’m not typically a worrier, these episodes surface unexpectedly, often when I’m at my most relaxed. Whether I’m lying in bed watching my favorite shows or soaking up the sun by the pool, I can suddenly feel the onset of an attack: my heart races, dizziness sets in, and I struggle to catch my breath.
Throughout most of my adult life, I managed my panic disorder effectively, experiencing attacks only once or twice a year. I relied on a combination of breathing techniques and medication—mostly Xanax. The knowledge that I had medication available provided a sense of calm. However, I was unprepared for the impact of pregnancy on my mental health.
During my first trimester, those familiar physical sensations—rapid heartbeat, shortness of breath, and dizziness—became a daily occurrence. Research indicates that pregnancy can trigger new panic disorders or exacerbate existing ones. Despite knowing these symptoms are common during pregnancy, my body reacted as if it were a trigger for panic, overriding my logical understanding.
It often unfolded like this: I would be peacefully relaxing on the couch when I suddenly became aware of my racing heart. Although I tried to reassure myself that this was a normal aspect of pregnancy, my mind would spiral into panic. Once an attack began, rational thought seemed impossible.
I would hyperventilate, my muscles would tense, and I’d feel detached from reality. In the past, panic attacks made me fear for my life or sanity; during pregnancy, the fear shifted to my baby’s wellbeing. The thought that I could harm my unborn child only fueled my panic further, leading me to believe I was a terrible mother.
The first panic attack, combined with the realization that I couldn’t use Xanax, initiated a downward spiral. Soon, I was experiencing multiple attacks each week. It wasn’t just the physical symptoms, though; the first trimester is fraught with anxiety. Each week brought the fear of miscarriage, and the slightest ache in my abdomen sent me into a panic.
Physically, I felt awful. Nausea plagued me, forcing frequent trips to the bathroom, while migraines kept me bedridden. My diet consisted mainly of Eggo waffles, which only heightened my feelings of inadequacy as a mother. My emotions were in turmoil, and irrational fears about my partner abandoning me loomed large, straining our previously stable relationship.
One Saturday morning, after enduring a particularly intense panic attack, my partner urged me to visit my OB. After discussing my situation, we decided to try Prozac—a medication deemed safe during pregnancy and effective for anxiety. Though I was apprehensive about taking medication, I knew I needed help.
Over six weeks on Prozac, I noticed improvements, even if it wasn’t a miracle fix. By the second trimester, I felt reborn, marking the 12-week point as a turning point. The panic attacks became less frequent and less intense, and my overall anxiety continued to diminish. By 18 weeks, I felt confident enough to stop the medication and, to my relief, I hadn’t had a panic attack in over three months.
Now at 31 weeks pregnant, I feel more equipped for what’s to come. I wish I had discussed my history of panic attacks with my OB sooner; understanding how pregnancy hormones and anxieties can trigger panic is essential for those of us prone to these episodes. I am grateful for the support of my partner, my doctor, and the knowledge that I have treatment options. This has restored the safety net that Xanax once provided.
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In summary, pregnancy can significantly affect mental health, leading to heightened anxiety and panic attacks. Understanding these challenges and seeking appropriate support can make a substantial difference for expecting mothers.