Motherhood is Turning Me into a Scatterbrain

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I used to think I was pretty sharp. I graduated with honors from college, so I know my brain had some serious capabilities back then. I can faintly recall being able to concentrate on tasks and complete them without my thoughts running off in every direction. But now? It’s like my mind is a carnival ride gone haywire.

Picture that amusement park ride where you sit in a car that spins like crazy, with other cars doing the same, and the whole contraption spinning too. As a kid, we called it The Scrambler. That’s exactly how my brain feels since becoming a mom—constantly spinning out of control. You might think I’m managing just fine because I can type this out, but trust me, I’ve corrected a ton of typos already. And in the last twenty minutes, I’ve juggled writing this, tackling three other articles, feeding the kids, singing lullabies, mediating fights, searching for a missing tablet, helping with homework, and scribbling a grocery list.

It’s like I’ve developed an adult version of ADD. I can’t keep my mind on any single task for more than a couple of minutes. Initially, this chaos only struck when my kids were around, but now it has invaded my alone time too. Even when I finally snag an hour of quiet, my thoughts are all over the place:

• Are the kids consuming too much sugar?
• What about their screen time—need to tackle that.
• Do we have snow pants that fit?
• How will we afford college?
• I can’t forget about the karate demo on Wednesday!
• Did I jot down that anxiety specialist’s name?
• The house is a disaster—ugh!
• Is it time for my son to start playing an instrument?
• Did I leave laundry in the washer?

Sure, I’ve always had a wandering mind, but this is on a whole new level. There are just SO. MANY. THINGS. Being organized helps a bit, but organization just adds another item to my mental to-do list. I could literally spend all day writing down tasks and still feel like I’m forgetting something.

Sometimes I fantasize about escaping for a solo vacation to a beautiful, serene place where I could finally calm my racing thoughts. But then I wonder—would I just spend the entire time worrying about my kids and husband? Am I destined to never focus for long periods again?

Maybe if I weren’t working, or if I worked outside the home. Or if we weren’t homeschooling. Maybe if I got better sleep. Maybe if I won the lottery and could hire help for cooking, cleaning, and tutoring. But even then, would I be able to think straight?

With three other lives intertwined with mine (four if you count my husband), feeling scattered seems unavoidable. That’s just the nature of motherhood—juggling responsibilities, relationships, messes, midnight wake-ups, feeding, bathing, and worrying about schedules and life lessons. It’s dizzying. No wonder I can’t think clearly!

Ironically, I once loved The Scrambler as a kid. Now? It just makes me feel nauseous. Probably because I’m already on that ride in my head, day in and day out.

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In summary, motherhood can turn even the sharpest minds into scatterbrained messes. It’s a whirlwind of tasks and responsibilities that can leave us feeling dizzy and overwhelmed, but we’re all in this together, trying to find our way.