I Will Share the Truth About Her Father

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Three weeks after the birth of my daughter, I discovered my husband wasn’t who I thought he was. Sure, sometimes good people mess up, and sometimes relationships just don’t work out. But then there’s that rare instance when you find out your partner is a high-functioning psychopath leading a double life.

This man is also my daughter’s biological father, and for five glorious years, I was madly in love with him. So, when my daughter eventually asks about him, what do I say?

Experts from Kidshealth.com advise that you should keep negativity and blame to private therapy or conversations outside the home. HelpGuide.org emphasizes that a good relationship with both parents is crucial for kids in the long run. The Huffington Post ranks not speaking ill of the other parent as the top suggestion for post-divorce parenting. Sounds reasonable, right?

But what if you unknowingly married a truly terrible person? What if you grew up in a picture-perfect small town, attended a great school, worked in film and modeling, fell for a charming guy, had a grand wedding, and then—just three weeks after your baby girl was born—realized he was a textbook psychopath?

What do you say to your daughter then?

Since the moment I uncovered the truth about my husband, I’ve been in a kind of silent limbo, pondering a few questions:

• How do I explain this to others, and how much detail should I share?
• What will I eventually tell my daughter?
• What do I tell myself?

After our divorce was finalized, I cautiously started sharing my story with other women whenever it felt appropriate or downright awkward not to. Almost every woman I spoke to had her own tale of a “really bad man.” Some had children; others didn’t. But the common thread was silence. Their confessions often emerged in hushed tones, filled with shame and embarrassment, as if revealing a secret.

As I move toward a career in clinical psychology, I understand that predators often target empathetic individuals—those who might blame themselves for failing to see the warning signs.

So, what’s my response to my daughter? My brother-in-law offered a simple suggestion: “Just say, ‘It didn’t work out.’” But when I consider those words, they feel off—metallic and rotten. Yes, it’s true in a broad sense, but it’s also a gross oversimplification.

Ultimately, I believe telling the truth is crucial for our children, especially when a bad parent is involved. One day, my daughter will learn about her father’s antisocial personality disorder and the terrible things he’s done. If I don’t level with her, I risk losing her trust.

To help myself and other women in similar situations, I distilled my approach down to a few guiding principles:

• Speak the truth.
• Be as gentle as possible.
• Answer her questions honestly.
• Keep it straightforward.

Kids need to understand that bad things happen in our world—not through shaming or berating, but through honest conversations. When we sugarcoat reality to shield our children or ourselves, we inadvertently allow abusers to continue unchecked.

Just yesterday, we strolled along the beach; she’s still young enough to want to hold my hand. It was one of those first warm days of May, and I felt less overwhelmed, comforted by the knowledge that, in time, I could share the truth with her, and together we could navigate that reality.

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Summary

The author grapples with how to navigate the truth about her daughter’s father, a high-functioning psychopath, while keeping her daughter’s best interests in mind. She emphasizes the importance of honesty, gentle communication, and preparing children for the complexities of life.